A Blue Day...

Ay me. We all have an area, a something, a somewhere that we screw up again and again and again. Maybe we've been hurt before, or let down, or disappointed. Maybe we're just scared.

Me, I built myself up to something today....and didn't make it.

It's a tiny wee thing, and I'm fine, but it took place smack bang in the middle of the area that I find hard (for some darn good reasons, I must say). Which is bad. But it will be OK. Tomorrow I can try again, right?

But as I type this, I'm feeling a little blue. And like the perpetual teenager that I am, I'm going to use lyrics to describe how I'm feeling...This song kind of sums it up:

Uncomfortably Slow, by Newton Faulkner (bolding in verse 2 mine, all mine)

Travelling again I know exactly how it's gonna end
The routine day dream starts as I get off
I'm holding up the queue
Because my ticket won't go through
I know it should be simple but it's not

So don't take my photograph
Cos I don't wanna know how it looks
To feel like this
As cars and people pass
It feels like standing still but I know
I'm just moving uncomfortably slow

Something's gotta change
I know I'm lucky in a lot of ways
So why do I want more
Than what I have?
Brace myself to hear the lies
I wonder if they know that I
Don't get the jokes but I just
Need to laugh

So don't take my photograph
Cos I don't wanna know how it looks
To feel like this
As cars and people pass
It feels like standing still but I know
I'm just moving uncomfortably slow
I'm just moving uncomfortably

Slow down
There's infinite detail
When you break it down
It all becomes simple how
It all becomes clearer now
So don't take my photograph
Cos I don't wanna know how it looks
To feel like this
As cars and people pass
It feels like standing still but
I know I'm just moving sub-consciously
One day I guess I'll be
The man that you think you see
I'm just moving uncomfortably
Slow.

I'm so blessed, I know. But sometimes I guess you just have to go with the sadness.
I'm sending you all hugs.

Love,
Cxx
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9 comments:

  1. hugs to you too honey ... xox

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  2. Hope that you are having a better day today.

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  3. Thank you guys. I just needed to vent a little.

    Am much better today, and I even think I may have fixed what was making me so blue!

    Here's hoping....it's very much a 'small step for a normal person, giant leap for Claire' situation.

    Cxx

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  4. You know, I kind of had a crappy day yesterday too. So today I spent a lot of time listening to the song "Today Will Be Better, I Swear" by Stars and it seems to have made me cheerier, so def get yourself that song.

    Yay for music! It is my boyfriend these days.

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  5. Wow...big hug back. And I definitely hear you. That bold part really spoke to me too. Hope you're feeling a little less blue.

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  6. ah, these sorts of situations are never easy.

    why is it that the best things in life are sometimes the most difficult? if you need to vent, feel free to email. am in a bit of a similar situation at the moment.

    *hugs*

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  7. Hi Claire,

    You can do it!

    You WILL do it!

    You will do it, or figure out its not that important to be good at everything and leave this to someone else to do :)

    Ok enough being blue.

    Be pink instead - remember - its the colour of cotton candy (or is it Candy Floss over here?)
    xx
    pinks

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