Ambition, ambitions

When I was younger, I had lots of ambitions, lots of wants, lots of wishes, lots of goals. These were big, huge, epoch defining, CAPSLOCK type ambitions, the kind that change the world, change lives, challenge the order of things. Some I think were born out of a desire to do good....some as an aspiration....some as an escape....and some of them just came out of nowhere.

I was the crown princess of dreaming big...

I wanted to earn a PhD. I wanted to travel. I wanted to live abroad. I wanted to get married. I wanted a huge, gorgeous house. I wanted to write a great book. I wanted to sing professionally. I wanted a big family. I wanted to work for the UN. I wanted to learn how to survive on four- or five-hours sleep a night. I wanted to win an Oscar. I wanted to.... Oh man, how I wanted to do so many things...

And now?

I'm still ambitious (a little hellion like me was never going to grow up to be completely mellow!), but pragmatism and an appreciation of how lucky I am in the little life I have have tempered the ambition somewhat. I want to sing often and well...and if I can ever have someone pay me to do so, that's all the better. I want to enjoy what I do, and am fortunate enough to have a job where I can find so many moments of joy (yes, even with the late finishes and piles o'stress and paperwork, I do love what I do). I want to be a good friend, one who listens and nurtures and cares. I want to help and love my family as much as I can. I want to build a home and a life full of beauty and kindness and loveliness...my own kind of home too (haha, for that read "cosy", "homey", or just plain "messy"!). As I've said before, I want to be a positive in the lives of those around me.

Things I desire now are less concrete, less tangible. My hopes now are simultaeneously easier and harder to achieve. But they sure are fun to think about from time to time....

What are your ambitions, friends?

Love,
Cxx
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13 comments:

  1. My main ambition is to strumpet* a certain cute boy who wears Chucks at a Sloan concert tomorrow night.

    *to strumpet is a verb invented by Christielli and Becca T... I think its meaning is apparent. ;)

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  2. This is such a sweet post. I'm like you...all these concrete things I WANTED (love the capslock expression!) and now I am equally ambitious, but in a different way. I want to be the best friend, partner, family member, etc that I can be. I want to achieve huge things at work but it's because I work at a nonprofit and that achievement will equal helping others...I still want to publish a children's book. I could go on and on, but it's mostly unselfish wants now, which is a good thing.

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  3. I don't know what my ambition is any more. This has actually got me really thinking. Thanks.

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  4. To figure out a route to Matthew.
    Also to be a good friend if I can, to do my job as best I can and to one day build a family. But the last one takes me back to the first one (I know have you singing "the circle of life" in my head - proof, if needed, that you are a good friend.

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  5. I never really had huge ambitions, and the dreams I had for myself changed when I did. I think now that everything that's important is family and hobby related; the rest doesn't matter.

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  6. I want to marry Anne Hathaway, lead a revolution in a despotic nation, drink enough Guiness that would humble any Irishman, sing opera, look like Russel Crowe in his prime...

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  7. My current ambition is to plan a successful wedding. Other than that, it's just to be grateful for whatever each moment brings.

    I used to know a girl who could get by on 3-4 hours of sleep a night. She got so much done! I was always jealous of her.

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  8. I want to get through the day.

    Well, in all honesty it's just the 9 hours at the office that I want to get through. Other than that, I've got what I want. I had a revolution not that long ago - my career is not the be all and end all definition of who I am. I grew up believing that I could be anything I wanted to be and that my career would be fulfilling and enjoyable, and although I'm in the career I choose and trained for...I don't love it, and often I don't even like it. That made me very unhappy for a long time, however since the revelation I've made more effort to fill my life with things I enjoy - relationships (my guy, my friends & family), fun projects (home renos), books etc. So, I guess I could say I want to maintain what I have and strive to better the relationships I have (I have to admit that I'm not very good at keeping up with my friends). And if I'm really being honest with myself...I want to stress less, travel more, and make some babies if the uterus is ok with that.

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  9. To be me
    Is all I ever want to be.

    That and the writing. And the acting. Which have always been there, at least at the back of my mind.

    And meeting a nice girl who talks about herself as much as I talk about myself, so I don't have to worry about forgetting to ask her how she is.

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  11. I am more ambitious now than I was as a kid. I didn't have a lot of hopes back then.

    Like you I want the more important things in life like being a good friend, the one you reach out to when you're down or when you're ecstatically happy...or just because.

    I want my kids to share my enthusiasm for life and for them to learn that life is all about love and relationships, not material things or job titles.

    I also want to be a kick-ass painter one day. ;) I want to enjoy the process start to finish knowing what I'm doing.

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  12. Priorities change as you grow up. Your on a good path.

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