It's proving to be one of those weeks. Actually, more like one of those months. You know, the ones where you feel like you're a total failure. I feel overstretched and hyper, and as such, I feel like I'm dropping the ball....
Work is the one place that's claiming a huge majority of my time (far more than it should) and yet I look round my room and even that's not 100% - we're in the midst of exams and reports and end of year shenanigans and I can barely grasp how I'm going to get it all done (I will though. I always do. :-)).
Outside of work, I feel like I'm being a crummy friend, blogger, daughter, sister, girlfriend, correspondent, joinee....but after a 13 hour day and a two hour commute, all I want to do is curl up and relax. So I'm really truly sorry if you're reading this and I've let you down. Summer term is ever this way and it goes against my instincts and my usual way of doing things - I like to be involved and social and helpful and supportive. And I feel I'm not doing enough of those things right now. As I said, I'm sorry, and I hope you can forgive me.
There is a major light at the end of the tunnel, though. I like to call it 'July'. Exams will be done, the reports written, and the boys will be all but gone as they move on to their next year. There will be stresses, yes (hello, house move?), but I'll have more time and space in which to work on them.
So roll on July and the chance to be better. A better friend. A kinder girlfriend. A supportive big sister. Someone who actually makes it to the gym, who remembers birthdays, who has time to be there for the people they love.
I can't wait.
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On a more positive note, this weekend I get to be there for two very special people who I love, as my darling friends Laura & Garry tie the knot! I am so thrilled for them both - they are the nicest, sweetest, funniest couple and I am going to be so proud to stand up for them on Saturday :-). Photos to follow, no doubt (I shall be asking the handsome and debonair Mattheiu to be my blog photographer, just like he was for Jenna's wedding).
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Finallement - the World Cup kicks off tomorrow. Who will you be supporting? My class are super excited about it - as is a primary school teachers wont, I am helping them to make a display!
