Thoughts for a Saturday morning…

Light touch my hand, in a dream of Golden Skans, from now on.
You can forget our future plans.
Night touch my hand with the turning Golden Skans,
From the night and the light, all plans are golden in your hand.

(Golden Skans – Klaxons)

I don’t think this is enough anymore. I’m not sure this is where I’m meant to be. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t hate my life or my job or any of that….I just a little grey. A little off.

I’m fed up of feeling stifled. Of feeling less than. I feel grey and unfulfilled and low for far too much of the time, and I know that’s not who I am. Reading back over the last couple of months on my blog, I can tell something’s up.

I am by nature a happy, hard-working, kind and creative wee soul; but that’s not really how I feel right now. And I want to feel that way. I want to be that way.

So I’m going to make some plans. Some different plans. I’m going to have a big think. I’m going to try and make sense of where I am, where I want to be, and how, exactly, I want to get there.

I have a feeling some changes may be afoot.

More soon,
Cxx

PS 200 posts! Woo!
PPS Happy St Patrick’s Day to you all!

19 Comments

  1. whatigotsofar
    17th March 2007 / 2:02 pm

    Whenever I’m feeling blue, I hide away in my basement, put on some righteous tunes and let my blues melt away. Or sometimes I drink. (:

  2. JUST A MOM
    17th March 2007 / 2:33 pm

    Hang in there and get yoru self a new PINK shirt. Have a great weekend.

  3. Miki
    17th March 2007 / 2:41 pm

    I get where you are comming from, a little grey, I kinda like that one. I always say I am a little off. Grey is a better way to describe it though. I wish I could tell you a remedy for it, but, well I just work thru it, make a few small changes, and eventually the grey skies turn blue. Comming from a tough year and a half, I had to make blue, sometimes I had to paint the skies blue for myself, the grey seemed to take hold, so if you can, find a paintbrush, and figuratively, paint your sky blue. Thanks for stopping by my blog, keep reading, and keep writing, sometimes that is theraputic within itself! Congrats on 200 blogs. Happy ST PAT’S!

  4. Heart Of Darkness
    17th March 2007 / 7:01 pm

    You are NOT grey, and you should NEVER let anyone stifle you!Happy Patty’s day 2U2!

  5. Photogirl
    17th March 2007 / 8:25 pm

    Happy St. Patties to you too Claire!That’s what life is all about, making changes and moving forwad. It keeps it exciting 🙂 Good luck finding your way my dear!

  6. bee
    17th March 2007 / 10:44 pm

    it’s going around. i’m foggy, you’re grey….you know you can ALWAYS email me if you need to. (hug)

  7. Mattbear
    18th March 2007 / 12:01 am

    If the age listed in your profile is accurate (and from your pictures, I’d figure it is), you’re about on schedule. Being dissatisfied and thinking hard and changing course are what your mid-twenties are all about. Think about things, make the changes you feel you need to…but have faith. Everything will be fine.

  8. Britmum
    18th March 2007 / 5:58 am

    Happy St. Pats Day to you sweetie.Hugs xx

  9. Cliff Morrow
    18th March 2007 / 5:59 am

    One word Claire…alcohol.

  10. Shaz
    18th March 2007 / 7:50 am

    Sweetness I will pray for guidance and clarity of direction. I am sure your headed to something much brighter, hang in there and embrace the change honey. Hugs To you and happy Saint Pattys Day xxx

  11. Los
    18th March 2007 / 8:47 pm

    I’m sure you’ve heard this enough, Claire, but sometimes ya gotta take a chance … you’ll never forgive yourself 40 years down the line if you don’t. I’m not sure what “taking a chance” would mean to you, though.

  12. Cheryl
    18th March 2007 / 10:29 pm

    I have definitely been there. I hope you have a good think and whatever comes of it, I can’t wait to hear about what you do next, whether it’s a huge change or something small.

  13. krista
    19th March 2007 / 3:56 am

    I’m with ya sister. Changes are good.

  14. Kris
    19th March 2007 / 4:38 am

    Keep your chin up, have faith in yourself, and I am sure you will find your way. =)

  15. The Grunt
    19th March 2007 / 7:48 am

    Yeah, it is one of those deals where doing the same thing is not going to bring about a different result. I’m going through a bit of that myself.

  16. Scott
    19th March 2007 / 12:57 pm

    Congrats on 200 posts, it is a pretty tough thing to do.Looking forward to hearing the results of your think.

  17. cK
    19th March 2007 / 3:00 pm

    And keep an eye on your travels! I always find that to be immensely rejuvinating. (I also find serious creative energy on the other side of a deep funk. But getting there, that’s the problem, hey.) Just booked tickets to San Francisco. Woo! And will soon pay taxes and then book tickets to Copenhagen and Stockholm (assuming I didn’t miscalculate my taxes).I’m singing it! So get yo’self to Canada right quick and feel better.Happy days,-cK

  18. Wiwille
    19th March 2007 / 3:21 pm

    A big think never hurt no one.

  19. MyUtopia
    19th March 2007 / 8:26 pm

    I’m in a slump. I have been trying to come up with ways to put more life in life. Good luck on figuring out your gray period.

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