I’ve always loved collecting quotes and sayings and lyrics. I especially racked up pages of them during those delightfully angsty years we call the teens. And in the current random time- and head- space I’m currently inhabiting, certain phrases are sticking with me, through the thinks and the sleepless nights and the general feeling-as-though-I’ve-been-shaken. Here are a few of the current faves (with a little linky goodness added in for good measure!):
“Right here, right now, I don’t know how,
To tell what’s right from what is wrong,
And I don’t know how I got here,
And I don’t know where I’m coming from.”
Polly Paulusma – Where I’m Coming From (see a video of this song here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WkLAGcdhfAs)
This song is so sweet and lovely. But it makes me sigh too, mainly because I just feel a bit lost at the moment. It’ll be find, no doubt, and I’m blessed in so many ways, but I just feel topsy turvy and alone and confused most of the time. I sort of just want the gravity to flip back on!
“Love tears me up like a demon.
Opens the wounds and fills them with lead,
And I’m having some trouble just breathing,
If we weren’t such good friends I think that I’d hate you.
If we weren’t such good friends I’d wish you were dead.
Oh it’s so embarrasing,
I’m this awkward and uncomfortable thing,
And I’m running out of places to hide…”
Jenny Owens Young – F*** Was I (see the video here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OZDT-FXXf-0. This girl rocks)
I love this song. It’s so raw and angsty. The lyrics don’t really apply directly to any situation I’m in but it’s that killer description of an “awkward and uncomfortable thing”….that’s exactly how I feel about myself, most of the time, recently. Something’s changed and I don’t now what, and I’m trying to deal with it with grace and kindness, but it’s challenging, to say the very least.
“Stand in the mirror, you look the same,
Just looking for shelter from the cold and the pain,
Someone to cover, safe from the rain,
And all I want, is to be home”
Foo Fighters – Home (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yHsLuwdjbkI Tada!)
This song makes me cry and sigh in equal measure. I guess that’s what it’s meant to do.
“I love I love I love
This dream of going upstream
I love I love I love
The trouble that you give me
I know I know I know
That only I can save me
I’ll go I’ll go I’ll go
Right down the road”
Feist – The Limit To Your Love (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QyifHsGAwnI I *love* the air piano she plays)
This song is just gorgeous….and it also reminds me of a very specific time. Last month, as I drove back down south from my parents, I was listening to the Feist album and I got caught in a mini-traffic jam in the Highlands. Stuck on a slow moving road (stop-start, stop-start), surrounded by huge, impressive, striking, fabulous mountains, the sun beating down, this playing loud. And that really feels like a different world in so many ways. So much has happened since then that I never would have predicted….some good things, some bad things, some things still in transition. I guess that’s how life goes.
“Can you hear me calling
Out your name
You know that I’m falling
And I don’t know what to say
I’ll speak a little louder
I’ll even shout
You know that I’m proud
And I can’t get the words out”
Fleetwood Mac – Everywhere (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jbsaj0XHUeg How awesomely eighties is this video?)
Again, this lyric speaks to me, not so much about a particular situation, but more life in general! I just don’t know where or what or who or why or how just now. I guess I need someone to sit me down and say “Claire, this is what you need to do”. As that only happens in movies or Flight of the Conchords (where *is* David Bowie when you need him?), I guess instead I’ll have to be patient, go with my instincts, and hope life returns to a more even keel soon.
I hope you have enjoyed the random music fest and that you all have a lovely weekend! I’m off to buy the last few bits of my costume and practice my songs for the gig.