I’m at one of those crossroads at the moment, I feel. And this time it’s a livelihood type one. Nothing major will be changing for a while (I’m locked in at work for the next term / academic year), but I’m starting to think about what to do when summer 2009 rolls around.
Do I stay in teaching? Or bite the bullet and pursue something else?
I guess part of the problem is that I love my job. I do. The actual time with the kids and the fun and the helping them learn and the real, honest-to-goodness being there, making a difference, I love. And I love learning something new every day. And the holidays are kickass too 🙂
But I’m feeling more and more like singing, acting and writing might deserve some of my time also. Just a year to try and see if I can break in. And maybe it’s almost time. Maybe I’ll make it. Maybe I’ll fall flat on my butt. But I feel like I should try, at least. I’ve put off trying for myriad reasons – wanting to make my parents proud, lack of money, fear of unemployment, just plain fear. Maybe I need to do this to just know I took my shot. Do I have that much faith in myself?
I guess we’ll see.