I am having a bad day. Despite the many blessings and gifts in my life, every so often (just like everyone) I hit a wall and get an attack of the lows. And when you’re normally as happy and “up” as I am, this season can be hard to grapple with. I’ve been doing far too much deep thinking lately, and now have managed to get myself so tied up in knots I don’t know where my heads at. So when life upped the pressure recently it was a case of when, not if, I’d get the blues. I have some pretty big old demons I have to deal with, and stubborn thing that I am I can’t seem to accept help…so when I get down I have to ride it out. And after a rocky childhood and a tough teenage time, I have buckets full of self-loathing to implement when the poo hits the fan. Mmmmm, healthy!
Could be worse though. This time last year (to the day) I’d just survived a dangerous, potentially very horrible, oh-my-gosh-I-just-flew-through-the-air-and-landed-in-the-road-several-metres-away moped vs Beemer collision. Oof. And blessings rightly counted.
But life is a bit stressful, and I’ve recently had a slew of disappointments, and I’m starting to realise that what I want is exactly what I will not / cannot / do not have. For myriad reasons. And that’s hard to get over. But get over it I shall. We all have to. But it is terrifying when you realise that you can’t deal with things well enough to dream or hope anymore in certain arenas. There are just some things I don’t think I can fix. I don’t know how. Maybe I’ll learn. Maybe someone will help me. But I can’t find that light at the end of the tunnel just now.
Anyways, what’s this about a quote board, I hear you ask. Well, in my classroom, I have an array of cheesey inspirational quotes on the wall. And this evening I’m going to share some with you, because as crap as I may be, I do love to help others. And maybe these words will help one of you someday…
“So long as we are loved by others I should say that we are almost indispensable; and no man is useless when he has a friend.” Robert Louis Stevenson.
“Your talent is God’s gift to you. What you do with it is your gift back to God.” Leo Buscaglia.
“Kindness is tenderness. Kindness is love, but perhaps greater than love…Kindness is good will. Kindness says, “I want you to be happy”.” Randolph Ray.
“One of the things I keep learning is that the secret of being happy is doing things for other people.” Dick Gregory
“To love and to be loved is to feel the sun from both sides.” David Viscott.
I’m wishing good things for you all.