Lately my brain is whirring and whirling, with seemingly millions of things to deal with and mull over and work on. For the most part this is a good thing, but sometimes (like on a Sunday night when you are full of miss and you know the next few weeks are going to be tough and your tummy is aching again and you’ve got back-to-school-it-is) it’s a little overwhelming.

I’ll get there.

There’s a line in my favourite Barenaked Ladies song (“What A Good Boy”: Clicky) that keeps going around and around my head. It was almost the title to this post. “Afraid of change, afraid of staying the same.” I guess it sums up a lot of my anxieties and worries at the current time. There’s so much in my life that I love and cherish….but there’s so much I need to / want to / have to change. And I’m scared, I guess. What if I mess up? What if I’m not good enough? What if I can’t change? These are the dark thoughts that keep me awake at night sometimes. It’s never simple, right? What a perfect catch-22.

I’ll be fine, but I feel a little like I’m living in a snowglobe that’s just been shaken vigorously. I am so very lucky and blessed – I guess I’m scared to leap for fear of messing things up. But I have to jump. It’s time. Does that make any kind of sense?



  1. Jeannie
    25th January 2009 / 9:15 pm

    Sounds perfectly normal. I think we all crave stability. But stability is boring so we want change but change is stressful so we want stability again.

  2. Wiwille
    25th January 2009 / 9:57 pm

    Ask yourself, what would Yoda do?

  3. JoJo
    26th January 2009 / 2:17 am

    Hey ClaireI am back blogging again but under a new blog. lol Got tired of the old one. I hope you remember me. All Things English (aka Britmum).Looking forward to catching up on your blog.~Take care xx

  4. Christielli
    26th January 2009 / 5:24 am

    Yah, you could mess up by changing, but you could also mess up by not-changing… So, go ahead and jump! ๐Ÿ˜€

  5. Sparkling Red
    26th January 2009 / 1:13 pm

    You’ll know when it’s time to take the leap. Sometimes it just takes a little time to prepare your courage, but you’ll get there.

  6. Scarlet
    26th January 2009 / 2:28 pm

    Change involves risk and it sounds like you’re ready to take some. I’ll be cheering you on from here. ๐Ÿ˜‰

  7. Diane Mandy
    26th January 2009 / 3:09 pm

    Perfect sense. Sometimes you just got to believe and take a leap of faith in yourself.

  8. PhilH
    26th January 2009 / 6:51 pm

    I have a tendency to jump. Usually about every 18 months. Or less.But you already know this.It’s exciting. But also quite scary. And I think makes it difficult to form connections.This time I’m jumping *back* to previous connections, though, so it should be good.I remember reading this a few years ago, in an article about a scientific study: Doing something different to usual every day (even if it’s just buying a different newspaper, or going a slightly different route to work) helps stave off depression.Also, toes are good.You can use them to test* water……*not academically.

  9. Miss Ash
    27th January 2009 / 2:58 am

    Makes complete sense…I say go for it…jump!!!

  10. Riot Kitty
    27th January 2009 / 5:55 am

    It does make sense – what does “full of miss” mean?

  11. Siobhan
    27th January 2009 / 10:06 am

    I know the full of miss felling well. Sometimes it gets kind of overwhelming.But remember what you siad to me? Hurrah for adventuresome living! I think life is an adventure and we cannot tell if choices are good or bad as we only get one chance and have nothing to compare them to so do what feels right for you missy and know that there are lots of people to support you in whatever you decide to do. x

  12. Cheryl
    27th January 2009 / 6:42 pm

    Even snow globes eventually settle down hon. You’ll figure out whether or not to change.

  13. Alice
    27th January 2009 / 7:47 pm

    i get so anxious before big changes… but always feel so much better when i have new, fun, interesting things in my life as a result. i tend to think change is usually good ๐Ÿ™‚

  14. ms chica
    29th January 2009 / 9:58 pm

    It gets easier after you take the first step.

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