And I really hope it is, my friends. I hope it finds you happy and well and full of plans for good things. I always love December, and I hope you are looking forward to a great month too.
All at the same time.
I have so many things to be grateful for (and I am) and have a month full of fun and friends and loveliness to look forward to.
So why do I feel so lonely? I’m surrounded by people I love, I’m blessed in so many ways, and yet I feel really sad at the moment. I have the joys of Karmageddon to look forward to in a few days…and I’m absolutely dreading it. I feel like I’m just a piece of poo who’s going to be in the way and annoy people by turning up. I don’t think this is the case (and I really hope it’s not, because I hate upsetting people), but that is exactly how I feel right now. If this feeling continues I think I’ll just drop off my things for the lucky dip and stuff then go home and work and cry which would make me sad and feel bad, but would be better than feeling like I’m in the way. I want to go and catch up with people I don’t see enough, but I don’t know if I can.
I don’t think I’m explaining myself well, but I wanted to say something rather than bottling all this up inside. I’m dealing with some things in my own head at the moment and I think the stress is making me overthink other stuff, and I just feel sad. Just sad.
Sorry for the downer post. This is where I come when I’m worried, stressed, sad, lonely, as well as where I write about the many lovely things in my life. 90s music of silly photos in the next post, I promise.