I’m linking up with Lisa-Jo for her Five Minute Friday series. Every Friday she chooses a theme and challenges everyone to write about that for 5 minutes. No editing, no long screeds, just five minutes, whatever comes out in the moment. This is my first time, and today’s theme is 5 years ago…
Five years ago I was twenty five and working as a teacher in rural Northamptonshire. I had a pretty nice life going but one that is so different to my life now. For starters, I lived in the middle of nowhere, so getting together with friends was really tricky.
I lived alone, and was hundreds of miles from friends and family. I didn’t drive (instead bombing around on my little yellow moped) and while I got on well with my colleagues, life was often quite lonely. While at times I miss that season of writing loads of letters, I also remember feeling very isolated and alone, where the post or online sites sometimes felt like my only link to the people I loved.
I was in quite a negative headspace too. A lot of the bad things from my childhood and teenage years reared up like spectres and caused me sleepless nights aplenty. Add in a stressful NQT year and a timetable that didn’t let up, and it was a recipe for quite a tumultuous time.
Many good things happened during this time as well, however. I learned, perhaps for the first time, how strong I can be. I learned I could look after myself. I learned to cherish the time you do have with friends (previously, I’d always had a bit of a tendency to hide away…now I know how to distinguish if and when this is a negative or positive thing. Sometimes it’s healthy and good….sometimes it’s me burrowing). I wrote many letters. I learned to be alone without being lonely (a big step, and one that I learned over the four years I spent in Evenley). My faith deepened. I discovered just how much I love to teach. I started this blog.
Such an important time. Such a strange time. Such a happy time. Such a sad time.
Looking back I am grateful for that time, and even more grateful for the life I am blessed enough to enjoy now. I’m a very lucky girl.