So, as many of you know, I’ve struggled with my weight for a long time.
A mixture of a busy lifestyle, an ability to cook, a huge comfort eating problem and a genuine love of food all combined to have me tipping the scales at 245 pounds and bursting out of a size twenty (eek!) as of last December.
It was not a pleasant place to get to.
You see, I think everyone has their ‘point’. You know, the one they always vow they’ll never go past. For some, it’s not being able to fit into their size 10 skinny jeans any more, for some it’s a magic number on the scale, for others it’s a feeling. For me, it was size 20. I’ve been happy at a 14, happy at a sixteen, fairly happy at an 18….but 20 made me feel huge. And when that started to get too tight….something had to give (before my zipper did. B’dmm kssh).
So this year, I’ve been focusing on getting healthier, and so far I have lost a little over a stone (some of which I gained back after my walking marathon and my visit to the health farm. Fail). Not the greatest amount, but definitely heading in the right direction – those tight size 20s are starting to get baggy! And now it’s time to knock it up a gear. In six months I’ll be thirty-one, and I would love to celebrate that birthday ‘overweight’ rather than ‘obese’. Can I do it? Time will tell.
This time, though, I want to lose weight the healthy way. No starving. No binging. No purging. More exercise. More rest. Everytime I try to lose weight the demons emerge, with the result that I’m always too hard on myself about some things (making myself feel horrid, worthless, ugly), but way too easy on myself about others (skipping the gym, snacking, etc.).
This time, it’s personal. I’ll check in early next month and let you know how I’m doing….
Start weight, Jan 1st 2011: 245 pounds (BMI of 40.8)
Current weight, June 13th 2011: no comment – once I’ve been healthy for a month I’ll share! I’m weighing in every week.
Target weight (first of four long-term): 179 pounds (BMI of 29.8)
I want to do this. I need to do this. Thank you in advance for your support!