Maybe I’m okay?

From: my pinterest, link unknown.

I’ve always been a bit of a worrier. I worry that I’m not smart enough, or that I’m a bad friend, that Matthew’s too good for me, that I’m too fat….when I get on a worry spiral, I can really rock it. I tie myself up in knots of doubt and worry and shame, worrying away at a thousand and one failings.

I was about to have a worry sesh the other day when a revolutionary thought crossed my mind.

Maybe I was OK.

Not awesome, not the best, not marvellous. Just OK.

What a heady, wonderful, challenging place to be.

To know you’re doing okay and giving your best, to want more but not feel like a failure in the interim. Well, let me tell you, it felt like a weight had lifted.

I may never be the perfect homemaker or a hyper-successful headteacher or a mega-blogger or a size 2, but I can handle okay.

I like being okay.

How about you?

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  1. Siobhan
    7th March 2012 / 6:10 pm

    Okay is massively underrated. I like being just okay, and feeling just okay and knowing I am okay even when it feels bad and scary. I happen to think you are more than okay, but then I am your friend and DEEPLY biased, but then I am your friend because I think you are grand. 🙂

  2. Christielli
    7th March 2012 / 11:12 pm

    I personally think you're much more than OK but I understand what you are saying with this post.At the end of the day, you just have to look at whether you'd want to be your own friend, and if you can answer that with a yes, you are doing well.Even though I'm having a shitty time right now, at least I can sit back and know that I'm OK with me. :)And ps you are an awesome friend!!

  3. Riot Kitty
    8th March 2012 / 3:33 am

    I think you are great! Good post, too. I think women in particular feel all kinds of pressure to be perfect, which is not do-able. But you are pretty damn close 🙂

  4. shuraiya
    29th April 2012 / 3:02 pm

    walking here to read your nice blog..:)hope you ok always….:)

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