Linking up with the beautiful Lisa-Jo, as ever. Writing for just 5 minutes on a given prompt. Love this link up!
This weeks prompt….is enough.
It’s like Lisa-Jo read my mind.
I am by nature a worrier, and as much as I try to dissuade this part of my character, I do love a good think on things. I try to be proactive and assertive about the things that worry me, but I still do worry! And one of the things I really do worry about is not being enough.
Not being smart enough, kind enough, generous enough, pretty enough.
I worry that I let people down.
That I can’t give them what they need from me.
In this busy life I feel like I’m always at constant risk of letting someone down, of not being there, of failing to be enough.
If I throw myself into work, friendships take a hit. If I concentrate on friends, I lose time with Matthew. If I lavish time and attention on Matthew, my Junior League work suffers. If I work hard on my JLL stuff, I have less time to blog. If I blog devotedly, I lose out on workout time….
I have to say, my saviour in this, in my worrying, is blogging. Being able to read the words of others, to hear how they are striving to be all they can be, reassures me and reminds me that I’m not alone. We’re all trying to be good writers, friends, girlfriends, wives, mothers, teachers….we’re all trying to be enough. And when I read peoples’ honest words, it soothes me; and writing about my own life here reminds me that I am enough.
I am enough.
I may not be the picture perfect housewife, the outstanding every day teacher, the epitome of a Junior Leaguer…..but I do lots. I give lots. And what I give is enough for the people around me. I know I’ll always be striving and driven to give more, but sometimes it’s nice to remember that I am enough.
I am enough. You are enough. We are enough.